Future~

What does the future holds for us? we could never really know what going to happen in the next hour or minutes or even second, what we could say that future is full of suprises, who would know htat one day they lucky enough to win a lottery, and the next thing us that they have a terminal disease, future is somehow mystery yet scary.

Without noticing through year passes by even faster as we aged,It just seem like 2011 chinese new year have passed, those good memories remains because the moment you spent just felt great!

I can't imagine myself where will i be ? In a office being a white collar worker? or a successful doctor? or just kept studying with never ending stress..I just hope in the future I would succeed my dream and follow the pathway i planned for such a long time.

Reminiscing old memories with high school friends where we live with no worries and just enjoy each day of high school by hanging out together, those laughter we had are pure and from bottom of out heart, how we treat each other without any caution and just say whatever we had in mind, those things will eventually change once we step into the real world!

I remembered a conversation with one of my college mate, she never seem to opens up and believe other, she believe that no one will be honest and true with you, they won't be there when you need them and if you face any problem they are the first to run away.

Starting I disagreed with her because of my high school were all true and honest never once i doubt them and I trust them with all my heart, well what changes is that met a few experience that I get to know more kind of personalities of people some with very mysterious background.

At least I try to get to know them, later on, I realise some people were just used to use people for their own benefits, I was shocked to go through such experience.I have a better view of the cruelty of society, well not really all I still have quite a long way to go !

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pY9b6jgbNyc

Coldplay- Fix you

try my best to find the light to guide you home!

enjoy this song!

Responsibilities

Just to think about this as we grew up during this period we gain lots of responsibilities, unlike last time when we were still young everything is done for you, is it a good thing? there are no certain answer for that.
Think about what are responsibilities really? My opinion is that the sense of duty within yourself, you are given the freedom to choose whether to do or not to do, your parents will not like come and ask you to finish up your homework and eat dinner and etc anymore.. is all your choice now,
For example my parents spent so much money on my college fees but i'm still slacking in it. Why? Is it because I got bored of it? Or am I just getting lazier day by day. Honestly, i'm not slacking i'm just losing confidence in it, because all those stress i'm facing where i'm starting to immune to it to the stage i'm giving up. How could I gain my energy back? Every second i wasted make me feel even guilty.
Seeing some of my friends which they are really smart starting to influence me to skipped class and join them to play game at cyber cafe. Now I start to understand what peer pressure is, eventhough I know I shouldnt but I will be taken as anti-social, this is another reason added to my stress..
Calling for help! its time back to faith and start reading sensei's guidance to bring me back to the correct path.
Just another two more month till my A2 exam reach and i'm still have a lot to study on, the sense of fear hits me like a big thunderstorm, So many things to do yet so little time, this is just how the way life worked isn't it?

~peace~

Dreams

Recently I've been watching a hong kong drama title 36 hour on call, It is indeed a great show seeing that my dream is also to be a doctor, I'm imagine myself as one of the character in the show and thinking how wonderful it will be, Neverthless, I think back to the reality where am I now still have a long way to go but still dream is the only reason why we survive in this world
I remembered one of the scene on the drama where once of the character say about not giving up, I believe that every one shall follow the dream no matter what regardless how impossible it is , once a philosopher said human mind is full of creativity, like for now who knew that 50 years ago there will be technologies such as smart phone nor computer all this is done by human imagination, what make it true is all plain hardwork.
So as now there are many things going around as you chasing towards your dream because all this obstacle is to make you grow and become even stronger than before, I believe the main is to think why you want to chase this dream what's the reason and by thinking that you will remain the spirit towards your dream
Last time when people asked me what my dream is I always tell to be a doctor and when they ask why I couldn't really reply to that because I haven't sit down and think properly, AS time goes by I kept thinking why and why ios it because of the money?, Fame?,power? or just to show off to people who looked down on you before? well what I could say that being a doctor is not an easy job and there are not much of fame or LIFE. As a doctor you have to sacrifice your time from the ones you love and being in the hospital everyday facing patient,as time goes by you will eventually sicked of it, so the main purpose being a doctor is to help! by help means to save people, well is seem like a very noble thing but take for example a patient with a very stubborn attitude won't take your advice to cut down their diet or won't take medicine so what will you do about that? Normally doctor will just be like 'Oh well fine its your life not mine, so when your sick got worse just stay in the hospital', this is what some doctor will do because they have other patients to take care of, so by help is that i mean I would like to help them with all my might regardless how busy my schedule I would never want to see the patients condition got worse.It may sound stupid and I couldn't guarantee that I will done it! This the the thing that kept me going so far.

Woah just to think its been more than 1 year since I last blog just to think about it wow time passes really fast and withou noticing i graduated high school and studying in college right now !

Now my time is even busier than before, Unlie high school college life is really hectic and the schedule is so god damn packed, I have no time for gakkai activities and worse of all sleep!. My panda eyes is growing bigger and bigger! god...

well just start by how college life road travel,
Around the same time of last year I received my SPM result and still planning where to study STPM,SAM,CPU or A-lvl along with my high school best friend venosha!
Well we ended up doing A-lvl in INTI college, Well what makes college different from hight is that in college i'm actually speak mandarin with my classmate and its feel really weird for me as I never spoke mandarin to other people except my family.
Starting of college was fun WAS! met a bunch of new friend great people smart and well fun, can't believe we were being so 井底之蛙 , we laughed at almost anything..
well as time past by things get complicated, we starting to feel stress because of AS exam and the life getting dull each day .. the smile on out face eventually vanished :(
After AS we had a trip to langkawi wee i couldnt say that i really enjoyed the trip as many thing happens before the trip a lot of drama happened, well the only thing i remembered is that we got drunk everynight!
Well I shall contimue my story in PART2

Camwhore

A trip to jonker street

Luv this !! I looked like MJ
Omg

It been a year since my last post!!! haha i have not much to say.Well let just hope this year will be a great year ahead!!

Well Block 2 Hsd had a trip to Kbelang Melaka and it was FUN!!

Well less talkin more viewing

~Realise~

Today i was in the world of anger when my dad ask me to take care of the shop after my wushu practice.I told him that i wanted to went home to take a shower then come out to help and he said no.I hate the feeling of sticky,it made me felt uncomfortable.So i was mad at him and i felt that the whole enviroment is so dull...

Suddenly i came to realise that my dad work much more harder than me and a little sacrifaction from me is nothing compare to them.Plus it won't harm me to suffer a while

I gives the credit to gohonzon for such an amazing power to make me realise and learn

And to my grandmother who always teaches me about HUMAN REVOLUTION!

That all happen today

~Peace Out~

Group Pic

Folk Dance lecturer was tiring so unable to absorb anything

Pizza!!
Domino Pizza And KFC for Han Pin lao shi Birthday

Economy rice for lunch
Tiring

Chermaine Ang A good dancer

Ghost face
Selangor Group
Camwhore kau kau



Meng GU

Dong Bei Yang Ge


Shuan Zhi


All those dance were greats all cool thankx to two great teacher
Han Pin And Wang Xin Teacher gonna miss u both

Wanna Break!

School has started almost one month from now and to tell the truth is damn bored.
I have to be in class where i have no friend.Why?I do not want my senior year to ended just like that.

Eventhough school was lame but have lots of great time from SGM activities such as The Beijing Dance Workshop where SGM had invited 2 greats teacher from Beijing Dance Academy and it was seriously fun :P.Camwhores lots with the dancing group knew lots of new friends from different states such as johor,kedah,Negeri sembilan,KL.

Other than that,i'm addictated to photo Taking,and i wanted to take lots of picture during chinese new year with family to have a great memories this year.I felt that i seriously grew up a lot this year.

~Less talking and have more picture~ Peace Out~

OBJECTIVE

Currently just back from dancing group practice after a long break finally!
Felt very scare still because of SPM.It feel like that SPM is tomorrow.Luckily i found a good way to overcome that fear,which is by chanting.I chanted for like 30 minutes my heart felt better.I trying to shakubukyu my parents.Although they knew about this buddhism but they never practice the faith.So my new year resolution are:

1. Score a good result in my SPM
2. Better english !
3. Plan my future after SPM
4. Be better me than last year (human revolution)

Other than that some of this are my prayer objective:

1. Every one in my family always in the pink of health
2. Peace,harmony in the family
3. Dad and Mom can practice faith in nichiren daishonin buddhism
4. Have wisdom,courage and faith in myself
5. All the babies grew up healthy

I wish all MY resolution and Objective can come true !

~Peace Rock Out~